weary

i turned around to see what is wrong with me. what is the problems that have stopped me to move on continuously. i want to know why i'm already getting tired to move on, why i seems to give up... . and. i found that, in fact theres no problems. not at all. everything is fine. is just that : i lost my passion. i lost my motivations. to continue all this. if you're tiring to pursue your dream & after you get a rest, and then you feel energised to start all over again, it is OK, but what if you actually no more motivation to move on, no more energy to pursue the unforeseen future? This is terrifying. and this is me, the one who already stops paying any effort to change my future. without any reason... me, snap.

↑ which is currently unavailable for me.

Part of your world

this disney song. brings back so many childhood memories! absolutely nice version.

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PS I do not own these photos. 

" LORD, I know that people's lives are not their own; it is not for them to direct their. " (Jeremiah 10:23)

so another usual day. but also enjoyable!
i spend the whole afternoon reading to the books that i bought long time ago but still haven't read. some are good, some are OK, and some are... mundane,anyway. i spend the night watching movies. sister is taking her exam, so i can't distract her... (OK although i keep on go into her room and talk to her.) and... I start to realise that i.miss.my.friends! schools are good, only if we go there just to play & talk with friends, and no homework no teachers no lectures about life no study. But if this really makes sense, i think this place will not be 'sch' anymore.

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23rd of Dec. My church is having a christmas party. &dangg i got my friends to come and join us! The thing is that we still didn't plan out the games and presents and all that. oh and i need to set up the christmas tree tmr morning. @

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idk. i am really getting all dizzy. i don't like things to get messed up like this, neither you. but we unconsciously making things hard. both of us. so... this is what you decided? OK, i mean just go ahead with your decisions... and i had mine. am not going to try harder anymore. enough said. i'm glad that i am no more bothered by this thing. at least i think i am, well... move on.

lastly, another picture of my mum's roses. 

it is 12:56AM and i think i'm NOT going to bed because it is drama time now! Goodnight;)

What if ?

Not a new song, but a nice song that i love very much. ;3

randomly

ytd was my mum's birthday.
and.... my dad bought her some roses. it is sorta... well it is quite unbelievable. Because my dad is a quite straight person, and barely knows something like 'romantic' xD


hope you like it ;)

you don't care. so why should i? D:

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staying at home can be quite boring sometimes. but it is still way lot better than schooling days. seriously -_o

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Happy birthday, mum. I love you =)