;_; ;_;

so the school has started like about 1 month, and i am still unable to follow what teachers teach.
it looks like i am the only one who is still blur blur in my class.
add maths is driving me crazy, starting from the stupid composite functions and blah blah blah...
maths... my maths is always slow.
bm... never listen in class.
bc and bi.... still ok.
bio... stuck at chapter 2.
chemistry... ok.
physics... idkidkidkidk.

and i don't know why, add maths is easily forgotten. if i don't do add maths exercise one day, the next day i forget everything and need to start again. (sigh...)
anyway. i will try my best to do what i can. i hope by doing more exercises, it does help.

is totally in new year mood. although it is still 2 weeks more.
these days i am getting really lazy. i don't finish my homework, don't pass up my homework in time, sleep the whole afternoon, watching drama and playing the piano the whole night. plus going to tuitions. dang. a day gone. i don't know why, but i am really... feels like i need to take a rest on my own. too many things happened this few weeks, and all that drove me crazy and made me feeling so tired and exhausted. things go wrong but i still want to continue to believe in God.
tmr is sunday. a whole new busy week starts all over again. fighting:::

torturing

this weather makes me sick. sore throat running nose headache all come in once.
and i just absent for 1 day, but the homework are hilly high. which is, yeah... superb.
i can't believe that my tuesday night that is supposed to be relax (because no ttn!) can turned into such miserable. i spent whole night finishing my school homeworks. i don't understand why we need to copy essays from essay book. i hate copying, this work is lousy and never help much in writing essay (my opinion). and what makes it worse is that those sample essays are all very long winded... this is not the problem. the main problem is that if the essay is long, we need to copy more.
now is already 12:23am, which i am pretty sure my so called 'beautiful tuesday' is officially ended.
but it is ok, as long as thursday is a holiday for students.
thats all for today. ;;

crisis

"an interesting event organised by my school".___. 

english essay topic given by ah sir. and he emphasized on the 'interesting' word, so i made sure i really wrote something considered 'interesting'. and.... it messed up. -_-

 

form 4 life. hectic. 

19/1 : happy birthday to my sis lydia. ;3

i hope everything will be ok...

The road not taken

其实孩子气，也没什么不好。人总有一天会长大，何必成熟太早，失去太早。--- weibo.com





I have to carry on. No matter what. No matter how///

Y.u.m.e

Dreams#

sixteen.

9th of jan was my birthday.
what i want to say is that I really thanks God for leading me in this 15 years and, although there was lots of difficult times in the past (and in the future as well), i hope i can trust in God more and never give up.
&i feel grateful that my family is healthy, my friends are all fine.


so... some photos here :
(photos taken by phone.)

This cake is from pastor!:)

rain drops on the car windows. slightly edited with blue colour effects...

i'm turning 16. i want to be a better person::

Why. Everyone is fine with it. Seems like I'm the only one left out. Sluggish...

What is this life if,
Full of care ------
We have no time to stand and stare.
[This is form 3 poem.]

...

i know something is changing. i can feel it. i just don't tell. thats useless to say anything in this moment. sigh...



Looking in the mirror, what do I see ?
I see me, for me, and not what I used to be.  - written by Han_Man

···

我觉得，在他们面前考虑这种事情的我很愚蠢也很无聊。
逐渐地，我失去了自己：：

很多事我的确决定不了，很多人我亦无法改变，曾经想要做水，可以适合任何容器，我努力了，然而，有一种固执与生俱来，有一种坚持不可泯灭，我有我的形状，我有我的棱角，我无法融化自己，去适应任何人，所以，不再勉强。

.saturday.

went for three tuitions in one day. and if you ask me what is the feeling, actually it is pretty exhausting.
but finally. thanks to my tuition teachers, i can more or less know what f4 Chemistry, physics and sejarah are talking about.


am elated. my bro and sis are coming back! homecoming*
and, for 6 weeks! which means more than 1 month i can have them with me!
i miss them so much ;_; and finally.
what makes me happier is that they are able to celebrate my birthday together and my sis's birthday.
thats all for today. bye now!

翅膀长在你的肩上，太在乎别人对于飞行姿势的批评，所以你飞不起来。

from weibo.com

not that if you treat people nicely, people will treat you nice back. not really. i hate lies.



ok. third day of school. it is sorta like stepping into a brand new 'world'. everything is different, for sure. and science subject separated become 3 respective subject.
actually the really busy life haven't started yet. and loll i am still in holiday mood sighs. nah, i don't wanna make everything so complicated. my dad always tell me to take things lightly and simple. when i was young i was not sure what he is trying to express. but now... i think i can slightly understand it.

new year

kl:::
 KL trip was pretty fun, even though the whole trip was tiring.

(not HD because these photos were not taken by camera)

OK i know i am late. 

today is the second day of 2013, and i am just about to start writing about things that happened in 2012. 

however, today is my first day of school, and i thanks God as the teachers are quite ok, and i really hope that i can get used to the so called busy form 4 life as soon as possible.. :::

oh come on. i hate my guts.